Did I know the extent of the damage I had done to myself in judging the past? I carried it with me like truckloads of judged art that no one loved.
INflamed tissues, bleeding from within bursting with unforgiven tears, stopped healthy growth in its tracts.
Yes, i prevented me from prospering, from releasing that which needed to go
i was like a thing that had eaten away at itself.
thinking i was revealing the wrongs of others, them, i was also striking at me that i could not see
thank u other, i bow to you , i owe my ever greater vision of wholeness to
you
Thinking i was due what they had earned ate away at my sense of self. My gifts went cold waiting for my gratitude and attention.
i lost desire to nurture all of me.
yes, all the proper emotions are there to make me a fitting case for sympathy. yet sympathy is inadequate to heal a broken heart. it is too weak to penetrate into the depths of pain waiting to be healed
decisive , soft, fiercely true , is the love i must know
when i choose fear , fear is what i see in every turn. when i choose love, i see the love that has always been and always will be there, sitting with me guarding me, walking with me into the way ahead
it is simple to understand. it is not easy to know.
i shall keep on going.
loving more all the while.