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must u dig in past the meaty flesh of my heart

to the vertebrae that holds me upright?

the pain of your turning to another is enuf

to numb my desire to breathe .

thank u universe to let me know

to let her be.

to let her play her hand of anger  at me  out

know that boundless Love is with you at all times ,

feel deeper , past the pain

this nurture can never be diminished

can never be taken away

will never withdraw for any reason


choose the higher Love





Safe ,here, now.

Sometimes I want to let loose the  tears

I have been

drowning in.

my own saddness

born of being inactivty

when my actions were needed,

silence when  my  voice could offer and open doors

for the ones ready to enter.

I drag  around sorrow

I watch what others do with their missed opportunities.

they are drowning too

no matter the disguisse

I see through it.

the external distractions  of living  will not save us from this tormented heart.

only the courage to step inside all of our being and doing

see,own, gratefully accept

our journey ,

however it is.

evolves our

ability to be fully here



to speak.



What is Self Mastery ?

What is Self Mastery ?

In a nutshell , self mastery is self control. Further defined, self mastery enables one to have say in how her/his life unfolds. It is a simple path yet it is not easy.

You becoming new  can potentially be a  daily happening as each insight, each realization is received…by you. Continuing practice strengthens your ability to choose how you respond in the moment to life’s ups and downs.

That singular moment of choice determines your future direction.

Beginning levels are about creating a strong foundation for your life long journey . There is more to us than most of us know through personal experience.

The movies and some seemingly harmless psychotrophic drugs may give glimpses of the more ” glamorous ” aspects of self discovery   with  disproportionate  importance.  Some weekend workshops promise you the hard earned diligence of lifetimes ,that of becoming a  master,  an avatar,  for a fee and minor inconvenience to your schedule.

And still, quietly,  the natural path of  self discovery , travelled  by  the ancient wise ones, is alive and well. It requires our enthusiastic  and ,undeterred  desire to do and be better people. It requires commitment to discover our more expansive selves.

You will find no isms here as you enter into your true heart.

Let your heart be your guide. It will call out to you in ways you cannot ignore when you are ready to learn more.  Pay attention.

Many paths lead to self mastery. I share glimpses of  my study and practice of fifteen years thru classes and coaching.




Swish !



” Tony painted his teeth green!”

I looked up to see 9 year old Tony grinning widely with forest green teeth , the paintbrush still busily swishing along their exteriors before we could  intervene .

This bein g just out of our immediate reach was the ultimate in his  exploratory fun.

He was seconds away from us doing what he did best …experiemt to see what things are like. What will they do if I do this ? or that?

Yes, he was still  delighting in the sensory as we were momentarily waylayed in wide eyed shock.

Stop !

This direction from several of us simultaneously, his supposed guardians of safety, only gave him more verve,more hutsbah to hurriedly  go on. Now  he tasted the green colored water housing the little brush .

With ticklish abandon, the remaining water in the cup he flung upwards ,carefree into the air ,splashing and coloring green , the table , the chairs, the floor, his shirt, my colleagues new sweater , her hair …with water color.

All to his great delight! The closed world of a severely autistic child opened for a moment and he filled it with color.

Yes, he did clean up the mess with  a grand smile of satisfaction and giggly laughter.

The opportunity to experience this green was worth

the joy of moving his  human puppets.  It was thrilling .

He had to clean it up. And he did that with laughter,too.

No problemo.

All done! ok . Art is finished. Let’s clean up.

How profound is that?

Imagine with me for a bit  how different  our lives be if we simply experienced life, for what it is , give it a go, clean it up . and go on.

Without judgent . This is our experience. Be in it. Laugh wildly, enjoy the chance to know it and go on .


What does the  next experience hold?

Let’s see.



we can’t say

we did not know

what was happening.

all of what we now experience in life

is the result of choices we have made


our lack of action,

whether in this life or

prior ones .







Is it depression …?

u may not b depressed , u may just b carrying around old  feelings

of yours or others there


you may not really have pain there

it may be  u stuck feelings u didnt want to feel there


u may not be  forever scattered

you mught just need to center yourself


going in circles ?

repeating non productive behaviors or treading water  ?


its time for an energy shower

if u choose.

are u ready?

turn the pages herein

a  path lies

before u,

i can show you


























Belonging to Love

we may find ourselves a bit angry

when we realize that

things we can grasp with our hands

will  only  temporarily satisfy us,

shift our attention

from the deep ache to belong to Love

real and true ,

everlasting ,