Awaken,True Love


ONCE,  life was all about finding my true love, my soul mate. I was persistently looking in all the wrong places.

Versions of me  attracted similar versions of love. Yes, quite likely the best that each man had to give me at that point in his life. It left me scarred, disappointed, and distrustful of my own heart’s knowing. I found one heartbreak after another with each succeeding relationship being more dysfunctional.

No one had that perfect love I was looking for and no one could receive the enormity of  what I felt I had to give. Being the stubborn sort who does not quit in the face of obvious defeat, I persevered.

It was almost laughable. Even to me. Why?

I  fall in love too quickly. I started to see it wasn’t so important who was in front of me stirring the love notions in my soul, it was the feeling being ignited inside when someone appealing was in front of me.

Yes, it mattered who and what he was like, but, really, it wasn’t until I met a guy named Omar that I realized where to turn for he ,too, hungered for the very same faceless, formless lover as myself.

This man had the ability to stay focused  on his silent engagement within in the presence of women hungry for attention.  It gave him a peace that we could not.

One evening in the presence of Omar was enough to set me on a different kind of journey, a journey within.

There did come the critical mass of declining relationships that sent me home to lick my wounds alone. I met loneliness face to face, entered thru its doors , wondering whether I was made for partnership.

And then the magic happened. In my self imposed alone time, I realized I was having a great opportunity to be with it. To call it mine. I accepted it.  The sting of loneliness , of being single, ceased .

Yes, a few years later, I did meet my life partner who has similar yearnings. However,  first  love ,real and true,  woke up within me. And yes, I am still on my journey, ever expanding inward, to become the love I seek.

Each of us has the built in inner workings to spring back, to heal, and to create a new reality for our self. If we choose, we can feel all of the life we’ve lived , the best of it, the worst of it , and all that lies in between , honoring what we learned.

Let us be abundantly informed with our elegant tapestry of yearnings, failings, and successes. We can refuse our creation, hide it, or display it with grace.

Somewhere along the way is our awakening as we cry out for relief. We hear the voice of the heart that counsels. We feel the spirit rise as we surrender to the safe haven deep within our heart’s chamber doors. We discover Love, real and true, burning, pulsing, and expanding within, consuming the chain of hurts from the choices we made or refused to make.

Are you looking for your true love? Keep going, you‘re almost there.

Copyright 2007 Linda Lawson





Lament’s Awakening

I wonder how i dropped 
from the love
of  the One heart

To rebel against u

Can I lay this question to rest?
Stories of what and why do not soothe
They distract 
From facing how i feel about doing, wanting something else
The stories of what happened and why and our varied versions of how
To make things right again are useless
Can rest  among the ashes of memories like any other once important thing
Flittering in the wind dispersing with whisper of movement
Pieces of something that once was ,scattered to lay at the feet of another
Endeavor in potential

A reality  enlivened by me
Held on to by me as a smokescreen
A deflector of the truth of how i feel
About my choice
I and you most like me, 
Pierced by my  cold icy stares of judgement

I could have loved  better had i eyes uncovered
Had i the will
I could have loved more
Easily breathing in sustenance and returning to  enjoy life

Life is 

Not mine not yours
Not anyone’s in particular

To have
To claim
To reject
To attach to

Its simply to experience
All of the miracle like peculiarites that it may spin out of itself

from creation’s love core

There is nothing to hold up as special or right  or wrong

Everything  is part of the nondescript  landscape of the All

Whose only purpose is to direct our course
Along this mirrored path



Advanced Recycling…Planetary Healing and Harmony

If I only had one gift to give everyone, it would be this meditation for Planetary Healing and Harmony.Help yourself and the planet in one fell swoop everyday day. Share it with others, if you choose.

You can daily read it , memorize and visualize it, or record yourself speaking it with an online voice recorder .  It’s always on this website .

Practice and Enjoy!

Adding a violet flame meditation to our daily practice is a lovely way to feel a sense of serenity.

The violet flame is a powerful tool anyone can use in meditation. It helps release negative karma, raise our consciousness awareness, the frequency of our vibration, and accelerate our spiritual growth. Energy can’t be destroyed but it can be changed which means we can transmute darkness into light, fear into love. This helps us to make the choices we feel negatively about become positive, while also helping to change our emotional experience. Physically, the violet flame can help to unlock emotions and energy pent up within that make us vulnerable to illness and disease so that we are then able to clear them.

This meditation can also be a way for to us express gratitude for Gaia and give back to the planet and its universe. Working with it daily is a wonderful opportunity for us to serve in planetary healing. It may be the basis for our daily meditation.  Like all spiritual disciplines it is best done every day at the same time.

Simple Violet Flame Meditation

 Picture a huge violet flame bonfire before you. Step into the flame, letting it surround you entirely while also filling the spaces in your body, your thoughts, even the cells and molecules within you.

You may like to affirm that you are cleansed and purified by the violet flame.

Focus on the positive things you’d like to create in your life. Visualize the violet flame in the midst of the scenes as they unfold on the canvas of your mind.

When you have finished your meditation, be sure to close with gratitude.

This practise may also be done any time throughout the day.

More In-depth Violet Flame Meditation




Begin by placing your body in a comfortable position. You may sit upright or lay down, whichever encourages the most relaxed bodily state. You may wish to play some quiet music to assist you to create a feeling of peace. If you have a clear quartz crystal then place it in your left hand and hold it in the region of your throat chakra. The crystal will serve to amplify and intensify the healing effect of this meditation. (Remember to cleanse your crystals at least weekly as they tend to accumulate disharmonious energies over time).

Begin the meditation by closing your eyes and visualising yourself way out in space orbiting the Planet Earth, looking down upon the earth spinning upon its axis. Visualise a beam of pure white light emanating from the centre of the brow and shining down upon the Earth. Combine this light with a feeling of unconditional love welling up from the centre of the breast. See any darkened areas upon the planet beginning to light up as you feel the Earth being freed from the chains of fear.

Focus now, this light charged with unconditional love upon the mineral Kingdom of the Earth, then the Devic Kingdom, the Plant Kingdom, the Animal Kingdom, the Kingdom of Humanity, then finally the Kingdom of Souls. Relate now in loving enlightenment with all of these Kingdoms upon the Planet. Each with an equally important necessary role within the scheme of all that is upon the Planet and all that will be and has been upon the Planet.

Now send the love and light to any situation, circumstance or anyone you know to be in need of healing or anyone whom you have ill feeling towards or they towards you. This reduces and ultimately eliminates any negative energy which is flowing towards you and frees you from the chains of the past. You must will yourself to send this love unconditionally and without expectation of return. All of this energy ultimately returns to you as healing energy and enlightenment. Complete this segment with the following invocation:

I call upon the spirits of light to stand guard at the doorway to my soul,

Protect me from the forces of darkness and deception,

And guide me upon the pathway of love, light and truth.

I now commit myself to the light.

God is within all that is, God is within me, God within grow strong.

Visualise now a great flame of violet light totally surrounding and interpenetrating the beloved Earth. After several minutes of holding this image consciously, direct the flame to any trouble spots on the planet surface such as the sites of military conflict and environmental catastrophe and see and feel this conflict resolving into harmony. Cleansing and aligning and purifying the conflict upon the Planet so we may enter into an age of enlightenment free from the intense competitive struggle for existence.

Now concentrate the flame and send it down to yourself on the planet surface. Its purifying, refining action cleanses you of that which prevents you from freely expressing that which you truly are in essence.

Draw the flame in through the crown chakra high atop of the head, draw the flame then into each chakra in turn working down the spine. Upon reaching the base chakra feel the flame flood into the entire bloodstream to cleanse the physical body of all disharmony. Feel now the flame moving up and out into the subtle bodies of the auric field. Feel the flame cleansing the etheric, then emotional then the mental bodies to finally reach and flood into the soul. Complete this segment with the following affirmation:

I am, I am all that I am,

One with the universal mind, One with the source of all life,

I am one with all life forms and they are one with me.

I am love, I am light, I am peace. I am.

In that which I am,

I invoke the light of the teachers of the spiritual planes and beyond

And I refuse all communications which originate upon the astral plane. I am.

This meditation attunes you to the universal energies which are pouring into the planet to heal and restore loving harmony to our beloved sphere. As we serve as the channel for these healing energies so do we also transform ourselves into beings of love and light.

Feel yourself fully present in this moment, grounded yet feeling lighter, although within the body, feeling lighter, capsulated in Love, loving balance,

See yourself now surrounded by a protective nurturing bubble of light, tinged with deep royal blue, all of your energy centres functioning harmoniously. Feeling more stable and now returning to normal consciousness, enhanced by the light, the love and the peace.


Version 1.0 copyright 2102 Cosmosis Academy. All rights reserved. Dec. 12.Many thanks to the Cosmosis Academy for allowing the use of their material.



To Heartlink

When you love someone, the best thing you can give is your presence. How can you love someone if you are not there?”Thich Nhat Hanh

You and I must show up. We walk in the world masking  ourselves and our strengths. It’s safer that way. No odd looks, ostracism. We can feel that we belong , included.

We know in our inner most hearts we are different . There’s no need to try to convince ourselves otherwise.

We try  to fool others yet they sense that there is something more, that we aren’t showing them all our cards. As we look around the world we see what the result of swallowing one’s words, sitting on one’s wisdom can be.


Education is integral to the process of change. Otherwise, we swim around in circles in our old ways gaining neither depth,insight,  nor the muscular advantage provided through challenge.

Enjoy becoming ever more  courageous and present with them.

Happy Holi-days

Books ( most of these are older , yet timely )

The  INitiate ( series of 3 )

Oversoul Seven

Mahatma 1 and 2-  Brian Grattan

Crystal Alchemy – Michael King

Nursing by Heart- Julie Skinner

Eckert Tolle’s books




Is This What Love Is?

open your hear to receive

unconditional love

you said

and i did

just like that

i was sensing your gift

tingles lit thru my body,

freeing up

my yesterdays and tomorrows

making them available to me


is this what love is ?

no rules, no rings,

no names covering mine

is this what love is ?

a natural high of

its own making

inside of me

influenced by the

consciousness of you

Is this what love is?

its a beginning

u say

there’s more

as u let go

u will  know love






Self Acceptance

this morning when you showed , as you always do , i stayed with you. i let you become part of my landscape, part of who i am and what I know.

i was more courageous i could love u.

today it did not matter that u were different than i had hoped for. today i saw u as u are.

today it did not matter. today i became one with u .

i held out my arms to u,let u under the warm cloak of comfort that nurtures the rest of me

today i protected u,

the fight is over ,

no more pushing u away

out of sight,

no more need to mask

what you truly are

on separate sides

are we ,

no longer.