Me? Love”Them ” ?

Did I know the extent of the damage I had done to myself in judging  the past? I carried it with me like truckloads of judged  art that no one loved.

INflamed tissues, bleeding from within bursting with  unforgiven tears, stopped healthy growth in its tracts.

Yes, i prevented me from prospering, from releasing  that which  needed to go

i was like a thing that had eaten away at itself.

thinking i was revealing the wrongs of others,  them,  i was also striking at me that i could not see

thank u other, i bow to you , i owe my ever greater vision of wholeness to

you

Thinking i was due what they had earned ate away at my sense of self. My gifts went cold waiting for my gratitude and attention.

i lost  desire to nurture  all of me.

yes, all the proper emotions are there to make me a fitting case for sympathy. yet sympathy is inadequate to heal a broken heart. it is too weak  to penetrate into the depths of pain waiting to be healed

decisive , soft, fiercely true , is the love i must know

when i choose fear , fear is what i see in every turn. when i choose love, i see the love that has always been  and always will be there, sitting with me guarding me, walking with me into the way ahead

it is simple to understand. it is not easy to know.

i shall keep on going.

loving more all the while.

 

 

 

 

 

To Heartlink

When you love someone, the best thing you can give is your presence. How can you love someone if you are not there?”Thich Nhat Hanh

You and I must show up. We walk in the world masking  ourselves and our strengths. It’s safer that way. No odd looks, ostracism. We can feel that we belong , included.

We know in our inner most hearts we are different . There’s no need to try to convince ourselves otherwise.

We try  to fool others yet they sense that there is something more, that we aren’t showing them all our cards. As we look around the world we see what the result of swallowing one’s words, sitting on one’s wisdom can be.

Devastating.

Education is integral to the process of change. Otherwise, we swim around in circles in our old ways gaining neither depth,insight,  nor the muscular advantage provided through challenge.

Enjoy becoming ever more  courageous and present with them.

Happy Holi-days

Books ( most of these are older , yet timely )

The  INitiate ( series of 3 )

Oversoul Seven

Mahatma 1 and 2-  Brian Grattan

Crystal Alchemy – Michael King

Nursing by Heart- Julie Skinner

Eckert Tolle’s books

 

 

 

Your Journey is Mine,too.

your journey is mine
too.
i can turn away from your pain
to save myself
act as if i don’t see it
it’s not part of my life
i have enough concerns already
all believed to safely justify
selfishness
i am better than u
after all, right? . i am bigger. i have more.
and that makes it okay for me
to let u struggle alone.
i am  more important,
more necessary to the world
why should i have to bear the consequence
of what u create?
whether it is my hand talking to my little finger
or me to u
it is the same result
we are connected.
and what u can or cannot do and be
affects me
affects the potential
of the whole
unity exists already in  consciousness
beyond the
mundane,
in potential
waiting to
be made manifest
by our  desire
to know it
oneness already is
a state of being
we ask for its expression
in  this now
heart to heart.

7/6/16

She Star…dedicated to Tarnia Miles

I might have missed your gift to us

had others remained silent

Now

I see what I must lay down

what I carry only by choice

waiting hoping there might be validation one day

holding out for it

there is no need for it is there?

breathe and allow life to simply move through you

smile all the while.

Where to now ?

Got issues with how your life is going? Sick of it all? Not interested in addictions, soulmate, to cover up  the pain? That is also known as “waking up .”

Ah, yes, I know you . You are beginning and maybe revisiting  the inner journey that makes all this earth living doable.

The journey has evolved. It was identified by the following familiar ways of being and doing: retreat from the world, find a spiritual meditate, use self control in all ways, follow the middle path , do unto others…etc.not necessarily in that order. Some modern programs offer you enlightenment over a two week period.


The ancient simpler ,yet longer path ,regardless of which path we embark upon ,includes ,releasing judgement of past choices. Being mentored by one who is a couple of steps ahead of you is very beneficial. This rests upon each person to decide how best to proceed.

Psychological clarity results when we release judgement. Otherwise , we are carrying all past emotions to every new situation.

Yes, it turns out that a cocktail of old suppressed emotions debilitates the body and heart and soul.
I know exactly what you are thinking.
Yes, I know. I thought the same thing. I thought if I didn’t focus on those unpleasant feelings, they would eventually dissipate and disappear.
I thought if I emersed myself in “good” actions ” right thinking , meditation, doing for others that the past would go away.
Certainly, those forms of meditation that take one above the fray would make all that unclear stuff go away. I could activate more and more chakras and never have to touch the funkiness of the planet again.

Not only did the suppressed unwanted feelings hang around , they had grown and festered in my mind. And yes, the new form would show up surprisingly at the most inoppportune times like an unwanted guest that you would never willingly invite to your home.

It would show at times like at the high point of a new venture or romance. Nothing like the past fears to hijack precious moments.

So being aware of these emotional bags of toxicity waiting to burst all over your new endeavor, project, partnership, or idea, is big. It’s important to recognize them if you want to make any progress .

They can have the disabling effect of failure making. One can believe its just not possible to succeed when in reality , its the old bits of you that you could not abide, that are showing up.

Once we recognize them, feel them, clear them, then off they go. All the energy it took to suppress them now comes to us. No more wasting away of your enjoyment of life,

In the end, it is an act of self love to transform these formerly unloved, toxic bits of us back into the mix of our energy systems. The choice is to clear them or further degrade our systems.

Really,its like would you like a drink of mud or water ? Its a choiceless choice , I say.

Psychological clarity is being clear, free of the toxic mental and emotional debris that swims in us and in the collective consciousness . And it takes daily maintenance.

After 15 years of developing the muscle and courage to transform these unloved bits of me , I see life differently. I see people differently. And of course I see me differently.

All the categories that we love to put each other in around color, income, religion, etc. just don’t make sense when one factors in all the times in the past that we chose to overlook what we truly feel, swallow our words , lie, or settle for second best. These behaviors change us , blur our vision, and have us pointing blame outside of ourselves each time we choose them.

This is the potency of psychological clarity. Once the unloved bit is transformed, the situation that was so intolerable , unfair , or unsuccessful changes .

Got issues with how your life is going? If you are alive , you may have an issue or two that is gnawing at you.

Isn’t it comforting to know that there are ways to live on the planet with optimism and hope….even joy. Engaging with tools for psychological clarity as part of your inner journey  may not be your way  .There are many doors.

Go ahead, walk through one ,explore.

Let me know what you find.